patiently but not patiently waiting...

Here I go about to rant about my problems again..Oh well.



I'm getting really frustrated with school. I mean really frustrated, I need some new friends desperately and everybody is so stuck up to even talk to me. Now I must admit, I do have a good bit of people that I talk to here and there and hey, there is that one girl. We might have a possibility of getting close.. But there isn't anyone that actually seems like friend material, just some that are nice to me. There is some girls that I really wanna be friends with, but they just don't give me the time of day. And it sounds like i'm freaking crushing on a guy or something but a girl needs friends too..right? I need someone loyal, and when I say this I don't mean a teenage girl's definition of loyal. I mean actually LOYAL. Someone that won't take me for granted like a lot of the others, and someone who won't hurt me like the others. Now I will say, we all make mistakes and we are bound to get hurt in some way or another in a relationship But could they at least not all do the same freaking thing? I believe my problem is not sticking up for myself, and honestly just being too nice when I shouldn't let people walk over me. But I've kind of handled that now, so I guess now all that's left is to wait.. Wait for God to send me a good friend. Honestly though, my patience is running thin. Please come soon..