you gotta fire and it's burnin' in the rain.

It's been like a month since I've started having feelings for you and honestly, they get stronger everyday. I tried to stop thinking about you, I tried to keep my mind off you.. but that just made me think of you more, and in return that makes me like you more. It's a never ending cycle of falling for you. I think about you, all the time..and I don't know whether I like that or not. Today we were supposed to do something, and I waited for you..for four hours. It's not the fact that you stood me up that bothers me, it's that you ignored me while you did it. I understand you had an issue where you had to leave town, but could you not tell me that? Did you honestly have to ignore every single text of mine? Maybe you're trying to push me away, maybe you want me to pull myself away from you.. Honestly, it's kind of working. You keep sending mixed signals and I don't know whether you like me or if you don't give a crap about me. I think that's what bothers me the most, I have all these feelings and you act one way one day, and one way another. I kinda feel like my heart is on the table, and it just sits there while you play around with it. Not telling you is killing me, but being rejected might kill me more.
My heart tells me one thing, and my mind tells me another...Maybe it's time to follow my mind for a change.