It's hard to believe this year is already over! So much has happened and so much has changed, but hey it's making us who we are right?
January:
I began to learn more and more about mommy hood while watching my beautiful boy grow. This month was full of mommy duties and very little friend visits... ahah
February:
The "royal diaries" trio grew closer and closer as we shared each others deepest secrets. We began to really build trusts within one another and start a real friendship. Aubrey practically spent the night every weekend haha.
So many amazing youth memories were made, we finally began to come together as a family.
March:
March, oh my march. It was filled with amazing amounts of drama. I was juggling being their for a struggling best friend and at the same time, my relationship with my boyfriend (at the time) started to really go down hill. I was all kinds of confused and we were constantly fighting. During this month there were many nights laying on the bathroom floor with tissues and a iPod.
April:
This was ONE of the hardest months in 2011. I struggled with many things but most of all, the one year anniversary of losing my father to cancer.. There was many nights I spent crying myself to sleep wishing he would just come back for a day, few hours, even minutes..My best friends were there but kind of acted like nothing happened, almost like they forgot. But of course I understood with a situation like that what do you say? How do you say it? Do you even say anything at all? I probably wouldn't have. It was rocky with my family trying to hold it together, but we made it through. Oh lord not to mention the tornadoes that swept through the south. It was a very devastating time but I was so blessed to see how the town pulled together and showed how much tragedy can bring out the good in someone if you let it.
May:
On the very first day of this month my world got turned upside down. Some may say it's stupid, but my boyfriend of almost 2 years left for the last and final time. Now I can say i'm glad he did so, but at the time I definitely didn't feel the same. I remember almost trying to work it out, but slapped myself back into line. I guess he'll always be my happy never after. I honestly think by this time my friends were just like, "Seriously?! Again?! This is getting ridiculous." The pity probably began to shrink as their hatred for me grew. haha. But of course they stood by my side and supported me through whatever. And of course a certain someone tried to sneak into my life and confuse me. haha Oh yeah, and one of my best friends graduated. Oh my, that day was filled with joy, tears, and many laughs. I was so proud of her and excited to see what she would make of herself.
June:
Summer finally! That month I had to face the fact that one of my best friends would be leaving soon for college. It was ruff, but we all held together and got through it as best as possible. Ex- boyfriend drama began to heat up as he tried to re-enter my life one again explaining that he had changed. Oh what a fool I was. I soon learned that it was all a front. Once again, my heart was torn into pieces and from that moment on I learned to not let my guard down with that boy ever again. As well as other boys to come..
